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update: I need to do a new Ice Boy impersonation for you guys. omg involves ice (of course)

Wed, 15 May 2013 21:53:03 -0400

update: I need to do a new Ice Boy impersonation for you guys. omg

involves ice (of course)

Guess who’s gonna go see The Great Gatsby with friends today?Guess who’s friends include...

Wed, 15 May 2013 13:26:00 -0400

Guess who’s gonna go see The Great Gatsby with friends today?
Guess who’s friends include Ice Boy?

Thing I Like (About Mason) No.1

Wed, 15 May 2013 13:18:18 -0400

He is SO into his faith. Specifically his catholic faith.

Picnic in World’s Fair Park

Wed, 15 May 2013 13:18:09 -0400

Picnic in World’s Fair Park

Fair warning: things might get slightly more mushy. Maybe I’m hormonal but I needed an outlet....

Wed, 15 May 2013 13:17:53 -0400

Fair warning: things might get slightly more mushy. Maybe I’m hormonal but I needed an outlet. And I figured that I’d lose a notebook.

Mason has switched from calling me “sweetheart” to calling me “bella”. While...

Tue, 14 May 2013 12:34:22 -0400

Mason has switched from calling me “sweetheart” to calling me “bella”.

While he’s still incredibly sweet and I love the idea of him using Italian, I am trying my hardest not to think of “Bella Swan” when he does this.

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Mon, 06 May 2013 00:36:56 -0400

I have officially reached that point with boy. The point where I like him so much that I feel like...

Mon, 06 May 2013 00:30:32 -0400

I have officially reached that point with boy. The point where I like him so much that I feel like I’m angry about it. I legit had to have a 30 minute conversation with myself in my car after he kissed me goodnight *in the damn rain* *for the second dang time*

I cannot with this boy. And then he tells me to have a goodnight and sleep well… or, even better, to have some more productive study time before bed. Like EXCUSE ME but were you there for what just happened? Yea, you know what you did. You should know that both of those things are now impossible because I will have yet another restless night and no focus with which to study. I hope that you are proud of what you have done. And right after mass, SHAME ON YOU. I am so done. 150%

I am not even freaking joking, if I can’t handle non-french kissing then

how. in. God’s. name.

am I supposed to get married and have sex one day?

just throwing that out there. cause it’s not gonna happen. I will explode.

alright, who the hell did it? Who told boy about winking? He freaking winked… RUDE.

Wed, 01 May 2013 13:05:00 -0400

alright, who the hell did it? Who told boy about winking?

He freaking winked… RUDE.

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Wed, 01 May 2013 00:43:07 -0400

Boy, I do not understand you. You have no qualms about kissing/PDA… absolutely none...

Wed, 01 May 2013 00:36:31 -0400

Boy, I do not understand you.

You have no qualms about kissing/PDA… absolutely none whatsoever. And now when I kiss you, you’re surprised? I can’t even with you. What an enigma, albeit a cute enigma.

Wat. I don’t even know. It has literally been 3 years since I’ve had a boyfriend to my...

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 10:51:00 -0400

Wat. I don’t even know. It has literally been 3 years since I’ve had a boyfriend to my name… and now I have one but idk how girlfriends are supposed to act anymore. Yea, you would think this would just be straight forward but nothing—I mean nothing—is ever straight forward in my world. So there’s that.

I feel happy, I really do. He makes me feel happy when I’m with him (not that I wasn’t happy before him because I certainly was). I feel like this is good for me… maybe… I hope so. We’re really different, but I find his interests interesting and I hope vice versa.

Maybe this won’t work, and I know that would make me feel incredibly stupid. I would just be so upset with myself for a while, but *fingers crossed* that it ends up like ice boy. I wouldn’t trade my time with ice boy for anything even though we were totally incompatible because it was a great experience. We had great times and fond memories (and funny stories). So that’s just what I’m telling myself. It’s okay to be putting myself out there and making myself vulnerable. I just need to find that balance between keeping my wits about me and enjoying myself.

I cannot even though. Like literally cannot. He just talks about being nervous and besides him...

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 18:46:42 -0400

I cannot even though. Like literally cannot. He just talks about being nervous and besides him actually saying that he’s nervous I never see any evidence about him being nervous. What the heck? And there is no way in hell I’m believing that the whole first kiss nerves are a thing for him. They are not. He is actually always cool as a freaking cucumber anytime that tension is between us. Like “yea… just a kiss… nbd… kissing? that isn’t so much more intimidating than walking” or some crap like that. But it is such a big idea. Here’s what I wanna know:

Why have I built up kissing so much in my dang head?
Do all kisses have to be super romantic and “movie-like” to be good?

lol rhetorical, but the reason I ask the second question is because we did kiss but it wasn’t… idk. I wouldn’t personally say it was bad, but I wouldn’t say it was spectacular in that hollywood kind of way either. Maybe it was kinda like

but even that is really intimate so… whatever. I think we’ve established that kissing is not the thing I’m good at. I’m hoping that was just the ice breaking kiss and now everything else will be much more natural and comfortable and I hope he’s not just sitting at home thinking what a bad kisser I am. holy cow.

Wait, what is the thing I’m good at? I’M NOT GOOD AT ANY OF THE THINGS